Summer Bucket List 2016

[ 03. 31. 16 ]

It’s been a casual summer day.

No school stuff or mall stuff. Just plain chilling at home watching YouTube videos and chatting (and planning) with friends.

Because of too much boredom, I went to Google and searched :

fun ways to do during summer at home when you’re alone

A lot of ideas and suggestions came up, but most of them were just the same so it was hard to figure out what to include in my bucket list (yes, incase you still can’t tell I am making a bucket list). In the end, I got enough activities to (probably) last the whole summer 🙂 And for this post, I’ll be sharing my summer bucket list!

(   ) 1. Finish watching ThatcherJoe videos
(   ) 2. Finish watching ThatcherJoeVlogs
(   ) 3. Read at least 5 books (or more)
(   ) 4. Hang out with Jiannah and Lian
(   ) 5. Learn to play 2 new songs on the piano
(   ) 6. GO SCHOOL SUPPLIES SHOPPING !!!!
(   ) 7. Buy the iPhone SE
(   ) 8. Have a Snapchat account
(   ) 9. Have a blog
(   ) 10. Fix Instagram feed
(   ) 11. Go swimming 🙂
(   ) 12. Have an outdoor picnic
(   ) 13. Go biking
(   ) 14. Go to a library
(   ) 15. Go to a museum
(   ) 16. Write letters to loved ones and send them
(   ) 17. Write compliments on sticky notes and stick them on cars or give them to people (or on the things those people have)
(   ) 18. See a[n] drive-in/outdoor movie
(   ) 19. DO PRANKS !!
(   ) 20. Vlog !
(   ) 21. Survive a whole day without electronics
(   ) 22. Enroll in a summer class
(   ) 23. Go visit parks
(   ) 24. Watch at least 2 new movies
(   ) 25. Go to a new place
(   ) 26. Build a fort
(   ) 27. Find photo booths and have your photo taken !
(   ) 28. Have a movie marathon
(   ) 29. Have a Disney movie marathon

Those are all the activities I’d be doing this summer! I do hope that I’ll be kind of busy enough in this year’s summer that I would never say it was just a casual summer day ever again 😂 I know that it isn’t summer yet in countries who have four seasons, so I hope this helps you plan for your summer this year!

At the end of summer, stay tuned for my summer bucket list overview/wrap up! 🙂

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Summer Plans

[ 03. 31. 16 ]

Yesterday, my friends and I got so bored that we decided to plan a hang out on the 1st of April.

It was hard for us since we’re just 13 year olds who want to see each other but have no money.

Malls weren’t an option (window shopping’s hard to do without crying okay), so we decided to go to a park. One of my friends, Lian, suggested we have a picnic and also said she’ll bring her laptop and some DVDs for us to watch. Another friend of mine, Jiannah, was quite worried for it was her first time to go to that park.

[Quite a] long story short, we thought of something else.

Lian suggested we go to her house and watch movies (through her laptop, of course) at the roof. I, on the other hand, suggested they go to my place and, they agreed.

Now you see, this was quite of a problem to me.

First, I never invited anyone over at my place ever before. Second, people at my house aren’t really that friendly (except for my aunt). Third, and last, I don’t know how to tell it to my grandmother. My grandmother is practically the “boss” of the house and should always be notified when something house-related happens ….. and she can also be quite scary at times so.

On the good side, when I told my mom about it, she agreed to let Jiannah and Lian come over at our house. I pleaded for her to tell it to my grandma and she agreed to do it, but I don’t know if she’s told her yet (I will ask her later, though).

Anyway, the only activities we have planned out on that day would be to watch movies and eat. Lian said she’ll have a photoshoot, but that doesn’t really count. Now, this is the part where I need your help. We don’t have any more ideas of what to do, so if you have any suggestions, please comment them! They will be highly appreciated 🙂

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It’s Over

[ 03. 31. 16 ]

Well, I knew it’d be over pretty quick.

I’m not talking about anything related to love, I’m talking about my channel.

I thought I could actually continue this “channel” of mine. I thought I was finally doing something I was scared of doing. I was finally being brave.

But then, everything just goes downhill.

I’m a very shy person, incase you haven’t known, that’s why when I thought about it, it felt like this whole YouTube thing was kind of a joke to me. Why would I do that when I know in myself that I couldn’t? I couldn’t bring myself to watch what I filmed, let alone upload it for the whole internet world to see.

It’s sad that I’m still shy, sad that I still can’t be brave enough to do what I wish to do. Maybe it’s not yet the time, maybe I’m just too young. Overall, I’m both happy and sad that this YouTube thing of mine will come to an end.

It was fun while it lasted.

Well, that’s what I think.

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Different

We changed, you and I
We became opposites
You became I
And I became you

You now have enough confidence
To lash me with your words
That you know would hurt

And I became the weakling
Who would feel the pain
But keep it to herself

Is this payback for what I’ve done
Or mere coincidence
For you to gain something and I, none?

If your words left marks on me,
Would you stop
Or continue laughing?

Would you beg for forgiveness
Or walk past?
Would you change
Or stay the same?

Would you?

Or would I be left bleeding?

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Top 1 Vlogger

[ 03. 29. 16 ]

This was typed in yesterday, the 29th of March 2016, but is published the day after because apparently, they turned off the internet.

I was so surprised when I checked the Vlogger Go Viral game because apparently, I am known to be the top 1 vlogger of the whole world (or the universe, rather)!

I have just installed this app three days ago and I am already the most known vlogger in the entire world.

If real life worked that way, then I would’ve been a vlogger ages ago. It’s just quite sad and disappointing that these gaming apps aren’t making us see the reality of life — that it’s hard to deal with, and hard to live in. It’s just like telling us that, “Hey! In this world, you’ll instantly have lots of money and lots of subscribers when you make three videos! Grow your channel and you’ll soon have a hundred million subscribers, a hundred million dollars, a thousand million views all because of the 26 videos you posted. How cool is that?!” No, that is definitely not cool for me.

Joe Sugg didn’t start like that. Nor did Tyler Oakley or Alfie Deyes or Zoe Sugg or practically any YouTuber really. They all started small, we all started small. You may not be a YouTuber, but that doesn’t mean you didn’t start small in life. Maybe your father rented you a small loan of a million dollars, but we all know Donald Trump is the only guy who experienced that.

All I’m saying is, in life, there will be no powerups, no extra lives, no nothing. It’s just you. And you have to survive this one hell of a ride. You have to live through it and give it your best shot, so when you leave the world you’ve lived in for so long, you’ll also leave a mark. You’ll leave a mark in the hearts of people. You’ll leave a mark because you did something. You may not be known all over the world, but the people who’ve known you will know that you’re someone worth spending time with. You’re someone worth remembering.

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Summer With Bits of School

[ 03. 29. 16 ]

Early in the morning, about 30 minutes past 8, my mom dropped me off at school. You may be wondering, “Why did you go to school? Isn’t it summer in the Philippines?”

Well, yes, it is summer, but I’m in 7th grade, I’m part of the Junior High School. And, what does that mean? Clearance. Yes, the ever so deadly clearance.

All I did was fix my clearance because I was missing one signature and went home already. And it became the causal day, with me talking to two of my closest friends whom I consider my best friends, having a ThatcherJoe marathon and playing Vlogger Go Viral (it’s so addicting, sorry). When all of a sudden, I remembered the introduction video I filmed yesterday.

I’m not gonna lie, it was bad. So I thought, “Why don’t I fix it and film again?” And, guess what?

I did film again.

I’m actually happy with how the re-filmed introduction video turn out to be. It was way better than the first try because I seemed to be less shy. Unfortunately, I still can’t edit the video because I use my mom’s laptop but she forgot it at work and she was on leave today, but I will definitely notify you when I already do and also when I post it so I could leave a link in one of my blog posts 🙂 I also tried to film my channel’s second video, but it failed miserably so I guess I just have to film it tomorrow!

The day became ordinary after that, but after I took a bath, I checked my Samsung tablet (yes, I’m not an Apple user) for notifications and was surprised to see one from *Ate Via. Ate Via’s the president and editor-in-chief of the Blue Flame a.k.a our school publication a.k.a my club. Apparently, she’s asking for photos about the Freshie’s Night (provided with proper captions and credits) and from reading that, I instantly panicked. I have quite a low club grade (cause I’m very shy and don’t participate much), so I wanted to make up for it and I believed that was the opportunity to fix that grade.

In the end, I ended up sending her two photos. Just two photos. I just hope that’d be fine and that I could have quite a high club grade for the fourth quarter.

To summarize my day, it was a usual summer day with bits of school haunting me. Well, at least there were just two parts of my day that are related to school. I hope tomorrow will be free from school stuff, though.

*Ate – a Filipino term used to address a woman older than the speaker

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What Have I Done?

[ 03. 28. 16 ]

Since it’s summer here in the Philippines (yes, I live in the tropics), it’s not unusual for my life to be quite boring. And when I become bored, I think (and probably do) the stupidest things I could think of.

Making this blog wasn’t really stupid, if you ask me. But, the same day I made this blog is the same day I made a YouTube channel. And that, my friends, is the stupid one.

If you’ve known me, you’d know I’m a very shy person, so making videos to post online would never be on my bucket list.

But, guess what?
I just filmed my channel’s introduction video. Today.

One half of this whole YouTube channel idea is stupid, while the other half is actually nice because I get to entertain myself, get my mind off of things that bug me and possibly even make me feel more confident.

When I made that channel, I already had in mind that I know it wouldn’t last long. My blogs didn’t last long, what more that channel? But since it’s summer, I decided to give it a shot. If I enjoy it, then lucky for me since I might be passionate about it and actually continue it. But if not, then I’ll not be surprised at all. I just hope that this “experience” would impact my life, somehow.

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You Came

My dad said I was his queen. I believed that, and also believed I was the queen of everything and, even, everyone. That is until you came. Until you became my heart’s king and until you ruined my belief. My belief of being the queen of all when I couldn’t even be your heart’s queen.

Before, “friendzone” was just one of the world’s simple words, yet when you came, it became complicated and real. It became a word that was too painful to even hear, like the pain that was only present in my dreams but is now a nightmare beside me.

I told myself to look at reality would be the last on my list. I planned a life filled with pure imagination that would make me look at the brighter things in life. But, you came. You came and I was forced to see reality, forced to look at the pain walking towards me.

Can you be Europe, and I Asia, so you’ll stick with me through the years the others would be drifting?

But, you see, I know you wouldn’t be my Europe.

And yet, even when the world comes crashing down, when the etherics split open, when my last breath would be heard and last goodbye said, I will still love you. And I know your eyes will still be fixed in front of the road, only taking small glances by your side as you become North America who left Asia.

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I Couldn’t Sleep Last Night …

because I thought of every single possible reason you could dislike me.

I don’t even fit in with the both of you, and I’m nothing more but a hindrance for you to do what you wish to do. My attitude’s ugly, as well as my face. You consider me intelligent and call yourselves stupid, idiotic people who have done every single wrong thing in this world. You may treat me like a goddess, but you give hints you regret doing so. The way you say jokes you know would offend me, the fact that you wouldn’t even miss me if I leave you behind, and that you don’t even become sensitive and consider my feelings. I could list more of what you’ve done to me, but it would take me a thousand papers to waste since I know you wouldn’t read this anyway.

Have I done anything wrong? Have I ruined your lives? Destroyed your souls? Crushed your self-esteems to their death? All I ever wanted was to make you feel you were special, and that’s all I ever did. I tried my best, I really did. But, sometimes, my temper ticks off and everything goes wrong. Everything goes downhill. Everything turns into chaos.

I’m nothing but a mere burden to your lives. Someone you would gladly want to get rid off. I’m this trying hard person who has done nothing but try to get your attention and annoy the crap out of you. I’m the worst friend you could ever have, and when I realized that,

I wanted to cry.
I wanted to bawl my eyes out.
I wanted to sob.

I waited, but no tears spilled. I waited as all my mistakes flashed before my eyes. I waited. And I realized that I’ve been wrong, too.

I’ve hurt your feelings and didn’t bother to say I was sorry. I didn’t notice how sad you were. I never lowered my pride for you. I always put myself first before you. I didn’t consider your feelings, I only thought of mine. I’ve done a lot of mistakes, but you chose to stay. But your stay made me feel bad, worst even. Your stay was a both a blessing and a curse.

I wanted to say I’m sorry, but I don’t know how.

I wanted to cry, but no tears spilled.

But even if there were no tears for me to shed, I know the smile I show you is enough to hide them.

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Wait, who?

Hello!

Starting out a blog means people don’t know the person behind it …. yet.

So, hello my fellow earthlings! I’m Ace 🙂 If you’ve seen a post somewhere that has the initials “A.F”, then there’s a chance that’s probably me.

Some basic facts about me include that I am a Filipino (and I obviously live in the Philippines), I am just 13 years old and I study in a Catholic school exclusively for girls.

I’ve been into writing since I was in 5th grade, and this passion of mine has never left me. I’ve tried blogging a couple of times, and I never really succeeded in any of the blogs I had. I got tired from them and stopped blogging, well, for a while. I do hope I last long on this blog, especially since I just created this out of boredom because it’s currently summer here in the Philippines.

Since I was a child, I was already into reading. I used to read anything — from newspapers, to children’s books to novels and even random stuff posted somewhere. And because of that, the belief that I could actually write and create something out of my words stuck on my mind. I used to write mini stories (that were so bad, trust me) and also tried publishing works on Wattpad (which failed, unfortunately). Those failing times contributed to the loss of my self-esteem, but I didn’t stop. I continued and kept a journal, which had the most random things written. To this day, I’ve already kept five journals. Some written works in those journal will be shared here too, by the way 🙂

I must admit, I’m not really, really, really good in writing (but I believe it’s my forte wow go Ace), but I do hope that you would get to enjoy the content I’ll post in the days to come 🙂 To all the people who will support me, thank you. It means so much. It really does 🙂

I hope you all have a good day and always remember that I love you!

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